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The Screech of an Eagle
I go to an orientation for my county's fire department. They make a big deal about how you make an impression everywhere you go, so dress...
Jul 28, 20253 min read


Stripped Away
I’ve come to understand we have a cultural view of death as the worst-case scenario. Anyone dealing directly with death and dying knows this isn’t true. But looking at how our systems are set up, it is clear we’ve concluded that life should be maintained at all costs. I had a discussion with my family about this, and we exchanged end-of-life wishes. One family member wholeheartedly embraced this outlook, clarifying that , should anything happen, they would like to be kept al
Jul 9, 20254 min read


Fitting
I see a text from a group chat that says the reserve department I’ve been volunteering with for the last year will be having structure...
Jun 13, 20254 min read


Thank You for Trying
I’m on shift getting groceries and a man is looking at me. I give a friendly smile and he says, “Thank you for trying to save my...
Apr 15, 20252 min read


Why Are You Here?
I’m in the parking lot of a testing site where there will be the three-hour written test required to apply to many fire departments. This...
Mar 12, 20252 min read


What Nurses Don't Understand
I’ve been a reserve firefighter for eight months. Over that period, I’ve repeatedly had the same conversation with different people. It goes something like this: Someone introduces me to someone new, “... she’s a nurse and a paramedic.” New person, “Oh, a nurse. Nurses have a hard time in the per-hospital setting, they don’t understand the scope well.” Me, “Is that so?” Them, “Prehospital, we’re very to the point, action-oriented. We don’t care about ongoing conditions and th
Mar 12, 20254 min read


You’re Really Not What They’re Looking For
I applied for a position I knew I was barely qualified for my first year as a volunteer firefighter. There is an engineer’s academy once a year and it was being held five months after I’d graduated my initial academy. The job posting listed two years as a volunteer firefighter or extensive EMS experience as a minimum qualification. I do have extensive EMS experience, but usually, I wait till I am overqualified to apply to jobs because why bother unless I have a solid shot? Th
Dec 12, 20247 min read


Come Sit Down and Talk to Me
I took the physical agility test that’s a prerequisite for many fire departments during medic school. I drove three hours to take it. I...
Sep 26, 20243 min read
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